Monday, April 12, 2010

so many struggles so little time....

Have you ever just wanted to restart the week so you can be ready for the struggles ahead...
Sunday I decided not to go to the gym so I could go to the movies with my little brother and then home to study. I knew I could just work out extra hard on Monday. When I got home that night my mom had been home sick with a stomach virus, around 10:30 I found her passed out in the hall. I finally got her to come to and walked her to her room where she passed out which point I called 911. It was the most terrifying experience I have ever gone through because I was home alone with her and literally all of my training for such situation went out the window.
The past 24 hours haven't been great, she is stable now though and they are keeping her one more night for observation.
I know I shouldn't even be thinking about it right now but my brain keeps going back to the 2 days, possibly 3, that I have missed in exercise. Also, my eating has been really weird, I literally have had fast food for every meal. I tried to keep it smart choices but still its burning in the back of my mind. I am going to start back Wednesday in the gym, I chose Wednesday because for me in the gym it is like my Monday...I just hope I haven't completely messed up things, I have done so good.
I am praying for my mother's speedy recovery and that she is also well enough to come home tomorrow.